Part II : THE GREAT DOWNFALL : HIGH SCHOOL & COLLEGE

When she entered high school Madeline was already attending church and learning about God. But when she got to high school she was being introduced to so many things this world had. Her appearance changed completely. She was no longer that chubby little girl with glasses. She was now a young lady who had developed quickly that summer before. She was no longer chubby but was now in "shape". All the boys who once made fun of her now wanted to date her. It seemed like things were changing for the better she thought. But not quite. She began dating in high school and although she knew it wasn't the correct time she did it anyways. Her mother will give her advice and tell her right now was not the right time. Her mother knew what was best for her but she wanted a boyfriend anyways. She was never sexually active because she wanted to wait til marriage ( that was something she learned that was sacred to God)  so she never took part in that. Her boyfriend at the time wanted to but she will say no , her fear was to great to disappoint God. Months passed by and she ended up breaking up with the boy because things weren't going so good. some months after that she meet this young man and she knew she wanted to be with him. She "loved"  everything about him.  Could it really be love? she was only about 16-17 but she thought she knew love. They began dating  and things seemed great. They will always spend time together just hanging out. They both agreed to stay away from any sexual activity til one day they fell into the tramp. The devil made them think that it was ok to do it since they "loved " each other. If they only knew what would happened afterwards. It was something done on a daily basis it was like an addiction. But their relationship wasn't great as it was. Jealousy came in the story and was destroying everything. There were no physical fights but there was alot of controlling with one another. They were only teens in highschool how can this be? They stayed together all through out high school regardless the fights and jealousy. They both graduated and left for college. He decided to stay at home while going to school, on the other hand, Madeline decided to live on campus. Little by little she was going deeper and deeper into the tramp the devil had for her. She was still dating her highschool boyfriend til one day she decided she wanted to experience the college life. She didnt want to deal with the commitment she had with him. All she wanted to do was to live life. So she did. Their relationship ended and she started to "enjoy life". Her roommates will invite her to parties, drink and smoke. At first she was a little taken back not sure what to do but then she made a choice to join them. She began partying and drinking first. While still meeting everyone on campus she meet this guy who she liked at first glance. She thought to herself that he will never be interested in her. He was the typical "popular" guy in college. He was muscular light hair, light eyes, the type all the girls wanted. And so did she. He began going out with them to parties and little by little Madeline and the guy will talk til they both began to flirt with each other. The flirting became one night stands til one day she realized she wasnt the only one he was with. Her heart broke and she felt used, worthless, and dirty. She moved on but the anger in her stayed. At this point she was extremely addicted to sex and didnt know how to stop it. It was like it was controlling her. She needed it. It was guy after guy, yet so was so unhappy. She felt like there was something missing in her. She wanted to fill that emptiness with the wrong things. Guys weren't doing a great job in filling that void for her that she ended up liking girls. Not to the point to date one, but she will kiss them and flirt with them. I was in shock. Madeline then meet this girl who seemed real nice and down to earth and they both became good friends. Madeline's new friend invited her over her house for winter break and she went. Something was waiting for her...  and she was not ready for it. Her story goes on...............

MADELINE ESTER FUENTES BARRAMUÑO PART I : Introduction

Many ask, whose name is this? Well, let me introduce you to her...She was born on February 14,1989 at 3:22 am. She is the middle child and only girl a beautiful woman gave birth to and I had the pleasure of meeting her not to long ago. I can say about a year ago I truly meet this person. She had beautiful long black hair and beautiful big eyes, she looked like a doll. Everyone loved being around this baby. But this baby began growing and things began changing, Growing up her life wasn't easy. It was a constant struggle within herself. What everyone thought she was beautiful she thought she was the ugly duckling. She wanted to please everyone especially her mom but it seemed impossible for her. She never thought she can accomplish anything yet alone her own happiness. 

She didn't believe in love, she had no idea what it meant. As a child, little Madeline grew up in a home where there was no peace. it was fight after fight. Which only made her anger and grudge grow every minute like a flower blooming during spring. It was so bad that during her adolescence she had thoughts of committing suicide and smoking. One day she was so upset she remembered her mom had cigarettes in her cabinet drawer and she decided to steal one to smoke, believing it was going to ease her pain. Madeline had no idea the damage she was doing to herself. She had no idea of anything, she was so naive and clueless. Boy I wish I knew her back then so I could have done something. But like God says everything has its time and he knew exactly what he was doing.  Years passed by and her life got worst and worst by the minute. Her mother began watching a church program on TV "Pare de Sufrir" and caught her attention so much she wanted to go to the church and attend a service. And so she did. She took her younger son along with Madeline one day and since that day she began attending faithfully. Things began to change somewhat, it wasnt over night things changed. It was a process but Madeline didn't understand. Her mother was lifted up to help in church. Madeline prayed as she was taught it was the correct thing to do. But being so young in church not knowing what the world really was about had her confused. She knew the world was bad but something in it was catching her attention. She was never the popular one or the one that many boys liked. On the contrary, she was the one people used to make fun of and all the boys didnt like her til she got to high school things changed. It seemed it was for the better but the devil knew exactly what he wanted to do with her. She had no idea of his tricks and plans. If she only paid close attention before. Her life was about to take a toll and she was not ready for it...........