My return to The Universal Church

I had no idea why I felt so confused coming out of the church. I thought I would be happy but I didn't. I went home that night scared. I couldn't be in the darkness alone. I had to sleep with the lights on. I wouldn't go outside during the night because I felt like someone was following me. I heard voices and saw shadows. " Was I going crazy?" I did not know what was wrong with me. I felt like I was loosing my mind. I didn't dare tell anyone about it. If I did, they will tell me I'm crazy. I still went to church. I manifested. Something in me wanted to get out but it couldn't. They would cover me with a purple blanket which they believed will protect me and remove all evil spirits. " NO!!!" This is not how you remove the evil spirits , I told myself. " I have evil spirits inside of me ! Take them out!!" That very moment I remember when I used to participate in The Universal Church and how every Friday was. I knew I need a strong Prayer , I needed those spirits to come out of me, but it wasnt there that I will remove them. I manifested constantly and they thought i was filled with the holy spirit. They believed I was anointed and I wasn't. " My God this is not right. Lord help me return to you" ....

Days passed by and it seems my problems just got worst. Until one day walking home I saw a lady from The Universal Church. She was on the corner selling her water. But as she was selling her water she was giving out some flyers. " I hope she doesn't see me like this" I thought to myself. I was embarrassed of who I had become. She stopped me and gave me a smile. Her smile warmed my heart and I felt as if her smile was a millions dollars. She asked me how I was and I told her my life is destroyed and I felt stuck. Thats when she handed me a flyer of a special event going on in the church" day of miracles" She asked if I would be able to attend. I was not to sure. The thought of people saying things about me scared me. " Yea I will go" I couldn't believe i said yes. She tied a white ribbon around my arm and I went home. That night something inside of me felt different. 

The day finally came. The day I was returning to The Universal Church after some years. I didn't know what to wear, so I randomly picked out a dress and went about. As I entered the church I felt peace, happy and knew I was in the right place. And that's when the process of deliverance began.....

Searching for Him

I opened my eyes and saw my clothes all ripped. I looked and felt as if i just got out of a terrific accident. My body was in pain, I felt lost and scared. " Did I die and my soul got trapped here" was I asked myself. Til this very day I remember. I thought I had died but didn't go to either hell or heaven. I got up real quick and ran to my phone. I had randomly called one of my friends. He picked up and he said hello, I said hi back scared if he wouldn't hear me. But he did. He asked me if I was ok...." I need to go to church, I need to find God" was what I responded. He was in shock but he told me he would take me to the church he attends on sundays. I knew I had to find God but I did not want to return to The Universal Church. I was scared, embarrassed, and something did not let me go there. I thought that they would judge me because of how I was and looked. " What would they say  about me? How would they look at me? I asked myself. " I am not going there" and I didn't. I went home that day with such a void in my heart. I knew something else was going to happen that night but I just didn't know what. I felt lost, scared and lonely. My mother would try to speak to me but all I will see is her mouth moving but I didn't hear what she was saying. " What's wrong with me" ....That night as I prepared myself to sleep a great fear came over me. "If I close my eyes, would I wake up the next morning". With that question in my mind I laid in my bed scared to close my eyes......

Sunday came, i got up took a shower and got dressed. My friend was on his way and I felt happy to go to church. All I wanted was to find God. I wanted to follow that God that saved me from death. As I got to the church they all said hello to me and looked very happy I was there. The service began and I closed my eyes, I poured my all, I told God everything that was inside of me. But Something inside of me told me this wasn't the place for me. I left there with confusion and that night didn't get any better..........

She was lost until He saved her.....

GOD vs. Satan part 2 of 2

She prayed with such great fear knowing this could be her only chance to repent. She threw herself on her knees begging God to forgive her but as she got determined to be saved they grabbed her and tried closing her mouth. They couldn't stand seeing her on her knees praying to God, seeking His help so they tried as hard as they could to make her quiet. She couldn't see them. All she felt was hands covering her mouth. The fear in her grew and she knew she was dying. She cried out loud, repenting asking God to give her one more chance. " God! Please hear me. I am sorry!! Please save me! If you are a real God, if you truly exist please save me and i promise to give you my life!! Please!!!!" After they heard her yell this with a sincere heart they got furious and knew they were losing her soul and they couldn't accept it. she felt at peace then a little calmer but that when this beautiful white angel came to her. " God sent me here for you. He told me to come get you. Everything will be ok" As he said those words, he caressed her face. At that point she began to felt such a discomfort. Something was right she told her self. The angel got closer to her as if he wanted to get personal. She stood back and looked at him. His stare was dead, there was no life. " God didn't sent you, you are not of God!" Get away from me! What was such a beautiful looking angel transformed into a hideous creature. He grabbed her tightly by her arm and told her she belong to him. his touch on her felt as if her skin was burning off. she knew the battle was not over. God and the devil were both fighting for her soul. But it was up to her and who she was going to let win. She fought too and she fought until she got what was promised. She was inches away from hell and God came and lifted her up , He saved her. He blew life into her and she woke up. But now she has to keep her promise in order to stay alive.....................

GOD vs. Satan Part1

June 10, 2010 Madeline was getting dressed and ready to go to the Aventura concert her boyfriend at the time had surprised her with. She was beyond excited because she never expected this. He picked her up around 6pm and she headed out the door. They both made a quick stop at the liquor store and bought alcohol and black & mild. She wasn't expecting to be so up close to the stage, it was as if she was a little girl in a candy store. They both began drinking more and started to enjoy the night. The concert finished around 11pm but it seemed to early for her. She wanted to have more fun , so her boyfriend found a open house party in which they went to. But before entering the party they decided to pop E pills and her life was about to take a toll she wasnt ready for. She began smoking weed in the party and drinking some more she was losing control then she started to feel strange. She began to felt like she was going to die. A fear came upon her and her life began to flash upon her eyes. As she sat down she began to rock herself back and forth as she chipped her nails til blood came out. Everyone asked her if she was fine and she would simply reply yes. But in reality she wasnt. Madeline didn't know what was happening. Both Madeline and her boyfriend decided to leave the party and go back to his house. Her boyfriend had to make a quick stop to buy some more weed so they can smoke at home and on their way she gave her mother a call to tell her she was spending the night with him. Her mother trusted him so she thought Madeline was in good hands. " I love you Mom. " Those were the last words her mother could have heard Madeline say. When they got home they went out to the balcony and started to smoke weed out of a bong. This time it was just her, her boyfriend and her boyfriends younger brother. They all passed the bong trying to compete who can inhale the weed the most and Madeline seemed like a pro but that was all the devil's plan. When her turn came again she passed she couldn't inhale anymore. Her heart began racing , she couldnt breathe and the two guys she was with turned into demons. Her hands came together as one would do when praying and she began to murmur words but everything she was saying she didn't understand. It was as if she was watching herself die in front of her own eyes. She began to yell for help................

DARKNESS FALLS

Have you ever been in a room with no light? If you have you already know that you are not able to see anything because it is so dark. Theres no life there. No light to shine, nothing. Well this is what Madeline had transformed into..DARKNESS. She had become this dark person who no one can talk to because a simple conversation would turn into a argument. All that darkness that was in her was being shown in her outside appearance. Her clothes, make up even the music she heard it was all dark. She had fallen in love with piercings and tattoos all because she loved the pain. The pain upon her body was her remedy to what she was feeling inside. Her life was being destroyed by the second and she didn't know there was a way out. She began living the night life trying to forget the pain she went through with her previous relationship. But she couldnt seem to forget. There was such a hatred in her against guys all she wanted was to use them and dump them. Madeline began to go out , she became uncontrollable at this point. She started hanging out with a group of people that were her "friends" in which she was introduced to some new drugs. She was now addicted to sex, drugs, and the night life. Her name was all over town, facebook, twitter, everywhere you can imagine. She was known but was known for the wrong things.

 Until one night, her life changed.........

A WOLF IN SHEEP'S CLOTHING

He was handsome, spanish, muscular, tall etc. He is the type that all girls will go crazy for. They both hit of quickly and exchanged numbers. Winter break was over for Madeline and her friend so they went back to campus. Madeline and her new friend will talk constantly it was quite an adventure she told me. He then asked her out to dinner with his family , she had no idea he would ask her to be his girlfriend. And so it happened. She put on her best outfit,make up and did her hair all to impress him and his family. She was very excited. All she thought was that she had finally found someone who cared and loved her. Someone who finally took time to care for her. That was the night they had become an official couple. They loved being with eachother every minute til one day....It was a spring night and she had invited him over with his friends to her dorm room to have a hangout. She received a phone call from a highschool friend who at that time was one of her closets friends. She had mentioned this to her boyfriend before they began dating because her close friend is a guy and she knew it was a problem for many guys, but he seemed cool with it. She didnt make it to her phone to pick it up and her boyfriend went crazy asking why she didnt pick it up as if she were to hide something. But she wasnt hiding anything there was nothing to be hidden. And that is when his true colors began showing. He slapped her across the face because he thought she was having an affair behind his back. Hours passed by she still couldnt believe he had done that to her, She always remembered her mothers words "when a guy hits you once, he will do it again no matter if he had said sorry or not". But she just ignored it. Just like her mother said...he apologized and gave her a kiss but things changed from that day on. He became extremely jealous and over protective. He didnt allow her to go out , talk to her friends, wear certain things. He became her master. She had no idea what she had gotten herself into and couldnt get out. It was fight after fight. Blood, bruises, yelling everything you can imagine happened. But she didnt have the strength to get out. It was as if there was something holding her and not letting her go. He would beat her up so bad she couldnt move at times. All she thought was why is this happening to her. She couldnt explain it. She always asked her self why is God letting this happen?. After one day after he beat her up he forced to have sex with her. While that was happening tears were pouring out of her eyes. She just wanted to run, she felt disgusting like she was worth nothing. She didnt want to live anymore. She yelled "help" but no one wanted to help her. Her neighbors knew what he was doing and were scared to come in. She was so skinny and so weak she told me she had no strength in her. Her first year finished of college and time to go back home. She saw it as her way to escape from him but it wasnt that easy. She got home and it was like as if she couldnt have peace anywhere she went. It was constant fights with her mother now. They both bumped heads alot and it was terrible. They never understood eachother and one day Madeline decided she couldnt take it anymore. She packed her things and guess where she went. Yup, she went back to her ex-boyfriend. I couldnt believe how can she be so naive. This time he didnt abuse her physically now it was a different type of abuse. Verbal, mentally and emotionally. She was his slave. She had to wash his cloths, cook  and clean for him. And when he wanted to have sex she had to do it even if she didnt want to. Although she was his girlfriend, he had many behind her back. this was happening for months til one day she went back home. This time she had to go away and never look back. And so she did, She went back home and wrote an email to him telling him it was over. Til that day she hasnt seen him since. she felt like a load got off her. She was now free  well thats what she thought. She didnt know there was more trouble her way.......